It's been a long journey, but I am happy to say I did it! I reached my weight loss goal of 135 lbs mid March. I've learned so much about myself along the way.
I've learned that I am more resilient, stronger and more determined at 44 than I was at 24.
I've learned that it is unrealistic to expect that I can return to my 24 year old self, and that I can celebrate my curvy hips and the little pooch of fat on my stomach that I've made peace with. I've realized that these are marks of womanhood, of motherhood, and that there are genetics at play that we cannot change, no matter how we may try. And that's okay.
I've learned about how to eat for health. And I've learned that there is a time to indulge as well - so yes, I will go and have a celebratory bowl of Jeni's salted caramel ice cream as a treat, thank you!
I've learned that I am an athlete (!) I am running at a speed of 6.0 for 30 minutes straight. I am lifting weights, in spinning classes, doing circuit training and exercises to strengthen my core.
I've learned not to be daunted by even the most overwhelming of goals - just about anything you want to accomplish in life can be done if you break it apart into pieces and take it a step at a time!
I've learned that there is no adversity that I cannot handle, that I am stronger than I thought, braver than I believed, and more resilient than I expected.
I've learned to walk into the gym when I am feeling tired, exhausted, and emotionally spent, and yet, replace all of that with a single thought when I start running: "Bring it!"
I've learned that running takes me to a place where I feel free, at peace, and powerful.
I've learned to love the muscled curves of my body and to be proud of every last moment of sweat and toil it took to get me there.
I've learned that getting to 135 was never about 135 being my ideal weight, it was about me accomplishing a goal I set for myself and knowing that I was able to do it. So if I go up or down 5 pounds on the scale - it doesn't matter. What matters is that I am consistently making healthy dietary choices, that I am in oxygen as often as I can be and making fitness a regular part of my life.
And finally, I've learned that I don't want to go back to being my 24 year old self, that I would not trade two decades of wisdom and the satisfaction of being a confident, happy and independent woman for my 24 year old body.
So if you've been with me each step of the way - thank you for sharing in my journey and for your support! Here is the photo update; hope you had a happy easter!
